So, if you’re reading this post it’s most probable that you are of a Spiritual mindset, on your own Spiritual Journey, or.. just being really nosey. It’s ok,..being nosey is totally fine. Everybodys welcome to read this post. But, if you are here because you resonate with the title of this post or are just needing some tips on how to get along on the crazy journey you are travelling down, or if you simply have an interest in Spirituality in general then this is hopefully going to really help you.
I’ve had so much help along my journey but as with most personal journeys the point of them are for the soul to develop on their own. You will go through moments completely ALONE and this is totally fine. You are perfect, right now, in this moment. That is the beautiful thing. Everything is ALWAYS as it should be. So my journey started when I was around 21 years old. No,.. I’d go so far as to say it started when I was born because I was what’s known as an ‘Indigo Child’ (more on that in a future post so stay tuned for my Spritual Series within the next few weeks).
At 21, after I left the long term and rather suffocating relationship I was in I found myself searching for my Other. The one that complimented me and the One that shared my own Heart. The longing for this person started when I was around 13, and it’s through waiting for him then him happening to me in that I found myself.
I was born into the Jehovahs Witness religion (or should I say Cult, i’m still not sure on this) So I have a VERY religious background guys. My first answer into the microphone at one of the meetings was ‘The Angels’ so I was aware of, connected to, and friends with the Angels and Spirituality since I was 5 years old! I have always been somewhat of a rebel, and have no time for being confined or for putting up with old, outdated, and unhealthy patterns and systems. Which contradicts the fact that I’ve fantasised about being a Nun my whole life! Anyway,..So you can imagine that going to the meetings and then later on, high school, was like hell for me. I just wanted to be around my family, my pets, my friends, be a dancer or an Actor, and be in the Garden with Nature. As I grew up and began to experinece real difficulties, I would nightly say my prayers to God. He felt more like a friend to me, not being a scary figure the way many Religions portray him to be and I would frequently fall asleep while talking to him, I was totally comforted by his presence in my Life and am to this day.
This was a very pivitol thing that happened, and looking back it was a definate ‘moment’ on my path. I met a Boy in my Dreams who I loved so much that I would wake up feeling totally in love. Like I had actually been with him in my waking life. They were THAT vivid. I knew I had met someone special and I had so much fun and shared sacred moments with this person. He had the most gorgeous brown eyes, dark hair, and was younger than me by a few years, but age did not matter as what we shared was so beautiful. Age has NO importance when the soul is in Love, neither does Gender in my opinion. I had no idea this person actually existed in real life. So I would ‘forget’ about these meetings as I went about my day carrying our secret world with me. A few years went by and life carried on.
Dark Night of the Soul
A dark night of the Soul is basicially when you reach crisis point on a personal and spiritual level. But it’s not depression of the mind, it’s a depression of the soul. I found my self at a point, having followed my intuition which led me to change my personal living situation and leave behind everything that was comfortable and comforting to me. I left friends behind, the place I knew as ‘home’ for the past 10 years and found myself feeling totally and completely alone. I felt so trapped and at my lowest that I would wake up most mornings crying because I realised I hadn’t died in my sleep and was unhappy I hadn’t. I was so depressed that I was scared to be alive and I felt and thought the only solution for me, at that point, was to no longer exist. I don’t mean to scare anyone or sound morbid, but if I’m going to put my stuff out there I HAVE to be completely honest otherwise I’m not helping anyone much at all! At my lowest point, I took a Sleeping Pill overdose and had to go to the hospital. This, my friends, is what’s known as a ‘Dark Night of The Soul’ it is unmistakable if you are going through it and are on a Spiritul Path already. I also stopped praying so much as I had lost faith and I had also experienced scary attacks from nasty enities as it was easy for them to get me at a low point. I had several Night Terrors of the worst kind. Dark Night of the Soul is different to the Anxiety and Depression problems I’d already had for years simply because of the set of events before and following, but of course you can only really see this with hindsight. If you’re going throught his yourself, know one thing. It’s for a higher reason and you have no choice but to see it though. If you need any help, advice, or support, and if you feel you are going through it right now, my email address is below this post as well as my Social Media. Feel free to contact me, I will do my best to guide you through ❤
Oracle Cards, Crystals, Astrology & Psychic Readings
I began to explore my Spiritual Beliefs more and more each day. God was guiding me and I had total trust in him. I also had a firm relationship in Jesus and the Archangels since I was a little girl. I have always been drawn to Crystals, the Yin Yang Symbol, and other spiritual things. One of my favourite movies has always been ‘Practical Magic’. I also learnt a little about Astology charts and know a fair amount about my own: Virgo Sun, Cancer Moon, Capricorn Rising 🙂 Who can relate?! I had gone to a Phychic for a reading as my Sister had bought it for me, with hesitancy as I was taught as a child you should never visit a Phychic as they are bad and just full of total woo woo. Anyway, this Lady told me I was about to meet the Love of my life. A few years past, a given that meeting my Big Love was my aim thoughout my whole life thus far, I let it go and was not even looking for him. I have written a few posts on this meeting before (just type in Twin Flame into the search bar) so i’ll not be going into detail much about this in this post. Yes, he is the Boy I met in my dream and totally freaking gorgeous! 🙂 ❤ I also love to do Archangel Oracle Card readings for friends and family, and have many crystals that I keep under my pillow, beside my bed or carry with me in my handbag. I specifically love Rose Quartz and carry one with me everywhere. Amethyst is another favourite of mine as it’s good for Psychic protection,..plus it’s really pretty. Purple is one of my favourite colours. So i’d really recommend you carry your chosen crystal with you everywhere to get in touch with its energies.
Psychic Abilities and numbers 11:11, 222 etc
Soon after you meet your true other half, and are on this Journey, you will realise that there is a bigger picture here and that you probably already have Psychic Gifts of some kind. Be it Clairaudiant (hearing) Clairscentient (feeling) or Clairvoyant (seeing) I have all of them but am prodominatly Clairscentient and have been since I was a little girl. My hearing gifts came on board after I met my beloved as we send each other messages through songs and that’s how the skill developed. Telepathically. I am still a newbe to my Clairvoyance. So at this point in time, I wont speak on this much but if you have any questions about being Clairscentient and Clairaudiant i’d be thrilled to help you! My gifts are passed down through my Mum and her Mum. It’s called ‘The gifty’ in Scotland. And well, I have the gifty too. Thanks Grandma Chrissy! ❤ Just after I met my Love in 2012 I began to see numbers like 11:11 pop up everywhere, 222 is another one that I see a lot. So when I say ‘pop up’ I don’t mean you just see them. They will literally ‘Plague’ you until you HAVE to take notice and it’s then that you find out that it’s one of the magical ways God talks to you, you have to feel the meanings to the numbers for yourself to know what they mean for YOU. Because I am on the Beloved path they are shown to me for this reason, for others it will be different of course.
Reiki and Kundalini
I will be writing an in-depth post specifically on each of these subjects shortly, so stay tuned for those. If you are experiencing these, again, feel free to contact me. Upon recieving Reiki (which was by total accident,..or..was it?) subsiquently Kundelini energy has kicked in and this is something I am currently experiening so I dont really feel qualified in writing about this in depth yet. Dont worry if you are going through this too. If you, like me, are on the Twin Flame path, this is something we seem to go through as a collective. There is a very important reason as to why we do, and I guess time will tell when everything settles.
My recent experience going through Ascention sypmtoms has challanged me physically, mentally and emotionally for a while now. My personal symptoms have been much like that of having MS, in as much as, I get the inner tremmors and vibrations, tingling in various parts of my body and feeling dizzy a lot. I have been to the Doctors mulitple times only to be told it’s all in my mind and that it’s simply Anxiety, and that they cannot find anything physically wrong with me. You, my friends, will never find the answers you seek at the doctors surgery! You see, Indigos, Starseeds, and other kinds of Old and wise Souls are Earth Angels and Empaths, and are really here for a higher perpose than just being a Human on this Earth. It’s just something we go through. I’ve had to accept that and I have gone through MANY physical changes on this journey as well as Mental. I also want to say that my experience has been food cravings after and during times of upgrading to my physical and spiritual bodies. For example, I have cravings for heavy dense foods sometimes, salt, or really clean organic fruits & veggies. At other times I will just eat whatever is in my fridge because I am SO hungry. At times I literally feel pregnant which is really strange.
The running thread in all Old Souls, Empaths and Earth Angels life lessons and experiences, I have found seem to be
Kindness & Love.
If both of these things are not reflected in your own life than I feel it’s safe to say you are not on the Spiritual Path at all,you are just not here to experience Spirituality, and that is totally fine. Mirroring happens because we feel others feelings more than most and we tend to mirror others which can lead to them being totally uncomfortable or totally comfortable depending on who you are talking to and how evolved they are as a person. It is also to help others to see their patterns and remove them.
Kindness and love, I feel safe to say are the main things we are driven by and is why a lot of times in my life I’ve got into trouble. I also cannot stand labels like ‘Gay’ ‘Straight’ ‘Black’ ‘White’ we are all the same and everything inbetween. So please,.. let’s drop the labels from today!?
A word of caution: There are some people out there who are known as ‘Spiritual Narsisists’ they have all the spirital ‘Talk’ but they dont actually walk the walk and you may find they are even mean to others in their personal daily lives yet like to project the image of being a spiritual guru. I know,..totally confusing. Being a true Spiritual Being is ultimately about Love so it stands to reason that someone who is genuinely spiritual will be a Loving and kind individual and will of been since Childhood. Empaths have a real problem with attracting serious Narcissists. Use your judgement, and you will know whether that person is genuine or not.
On that note, I’ll end this post with Love. Just Love everybody and please stop judging others. Only God is qualified to judge. Be kind to everyone you meet, a smile might just make that persons day or even their week.
Have a great Saturday everyone!